the truth hurts

there's this happy place i like to live.  it's called "blissful ignorance."  i know that people do things i don't like, but i like to be in a state of blissful ignorance.  i don't need to know.  

i think this is the place where pain happens for me.  if i don't know, for a fact, then i can act as though it doesn't happen.  but when i see it.  see proof of it.  it changes the game.  what.  the.  entire.  fuck?!  i'm spent. 

pour me a drink.  a double.  and another.